Good Evening. Firstly I'd like to thank everyone that signed up recently to follow my blog in different ways and the love and support I've had on facebook from so many. I've been overwhelmed by how kind everybody has been - Thank you, it means so much and helps make the days so much more bearable.
I'm also sorry that as yet I haven't replied to so many, I've found my life has transformed into an almost never ending circle of hospital visits and catching up with friends and family as well as the normal everyday round of housework, shopping, cooking, etc. etc. I'm already exhausted LOL! I can only imagine how I will feel once my treatment begins.
Today I had to go to the hospital to have my MRI scan to determine how large and deep my tumour is and if my cancer has spread or not. Now again I have to wait until Tuesday for the results of that. I'm not the worlds best 'waiter' lol.
My doctor gave me some Valium for the MRI scan as I have a dreaded fear of being enclosed and just the thought of it had freaked me out. The nurses are all so kind and patient. I was quite proud of how brave I was being and what a warrior I was, until I came out to see a child of about 10, who had lost his hair to chemo and was standing with a happy smile for me waiting for his turn! Life has a habit of bringing reality sharply home to you sometimes.
My apologies for the lack of photos at the moment, I have to admit to being easily bored if things don't have pictures to look at lol, however I haven't found image appropriate content the last few days?
I've found my current situation to have had a plus side already, something to perhaps be grateful for. My art is a powerful release in my life and recently I've done very little, I've been 'stuck' somehow, with few glimpses of inspiration and doubts about if I ever make anything that can be considered 'good enough' (for 'what' exactly I'm not sure?) Anyway recently I've signed up for some on-line classes that I'll try to link to later, when I have a working brain cell to try and figure it out. I'm slightly concerned that I've put my name down for about 5 courses that all start around the same time and will come in time with the beginning of my treatment. Maybe that was a little optimistic? But I tend to be an all or nothing person anyway and the courses are mostly self paced, so I'm hoping it will be a blessing and not something to stress about. I've already found though that my creative side is 'speaking' to me more clearly and that, I love!
My Thanks again to you all, your presence means the world to me and I really hope and pray you'll pop in and stay a while with me occasionally and perhaps I'll get to know some of you so much more over time.Love and Blessing to you all